back on track

I got the job offer yesterday. The amount of payment will be enough for me to live alone, with little left.
So! I have been brooding with dark temper for months, and in idleness with jobless-restless-ness. Now I finally feel I'm back on track. The new job will be challenging, but not very technically challenging. It will be mainly personally challenging. I think it's a healthy combination to me. And I have a lot of ideas and plans for the future life. Sometimes it feels terrifying.

I got up at 9:00 this morning. I did washing and others and breakfasted leisurely. I booked a hospital examination, and played Bach a little. Mum is planning something to our balcony, and a man came to do the measuring. I was a bit light hearted and a bit restless. It took me a quite some effort to decide to go out. I need to do some thinking outside my parent's home.

Because I got a job offer, I suddenly felt the need to spend some money. I had in mind to do some shopping around the subway station. I also had in mind to go to the library for some real quite time. So I set out.

I visited the shops but bought nothing. To go to the library will be a long walk (or a shorter one but a long waiting for a bus). So I postponed it by popping into a bookstore. I wanted to buy a gift for my father. I came across a Stephen Hawking book, it even contains the original english text. So I bought it. It can be a present to father. I will go to a bigger store in search for something grander, maybe a book with illustration about astronamy.

During my negative days, most of the possitive thinking happened in the library. So I made up my mind and walked for 40 minutes to the library. I'm glad I made the decision. I could sit there without reading, yet it would be better than staying home. The library is now the best place to calm me down, to make me full of ideas.

I sat down with "Music Theory for Today's Musicians" by Ralph Turek. I was not prepared to dive into the book. I plan to only read the first part of the book for the time being (and it will take a long time). And ideas came while I was settling into the book. Ideas of my life, of work, of vague projects...

I had plans for tonight. Then I came home. My parents were out. I had a brief dinner. I carried out part of my plans. But then I was stuck online and did not do much things constructively.

But I'm on good track! Come on!

From tomorrow on I will sleep early and get up early. I will record what I did. I will live an examined life.

I look forward to meeting Alex tomorrow. :)